Each action takes the same lenght of 2 minutes for this video. However it can be applied for 5 min./3min./1 min. for each part.

1.part : sitting in silence without movement ( in a meditative mood)

2.part : add talking (in any language or sound ) without moving at all

3.part : stop talking, continue only using hand gestures 

4.part : start talking and continue hand gestures

5.part : stop talking, continue hand gesture

6.part : back to sitting in silence without movement 

Please watch the movie now and then read have a look at the feedbacks below.

 Aydın Teker:

 1. Not easy. To blink my eyes all the time, bothered me a lot. I was almost feeling guilty. Not being able to do what I have to do properly.

2. I preferred to make sounds. To create sounds without using my face was interesting. I really enjoyed some of the sounds I created. 

3. I realized that I can not use my hands alone.

4.Talking and using my hands caused me to have a nervous breakdown. Maybe the problem was related to the previous section. 

5. I do not remember what I experienced on this part. 

6.I think I calmed down here.

In general, I can say that I had difficulty using my hands. It was difficult to use my hands when I was not using my face. I think I could not accomplish what I had to do. I found myself making judgements. But it felt good to have the nervous breakdown somehow. The hands after was like calm after a storm. It was not important what I was doing. I felt good that I was still able to stand up after such a hustle. The silence at the end could have lasted longer. The guilt feeling I had at the beginning was not there anymore, even though I was totally lost about what I was supposed to do at that instant...

Defne Erdur: 

1. It was so difficult to stand still in silence. My mind and my eyes could not stop. And I felt uneasy and guilty somehow.

2. In this stage, I chose to say what was happening in me, in my mind. I said it out loud. It helped me to relax a little, yet the silly and meaningless this I started to utter made me feel stupid again.

3. Just moving my hands made me fall into a void of some kind. If I do not have anything to say in my mind, why move my hands? It feels as if I need not move at all if my mind is calm and empty. I did not want to move in this stage, it felt pretentious.

4. I felt "ohhh, this is me!" at this stage. I talked and moved freely. I felt so much at home. Although Aydin was laughing next to me, it was so easy for me to continue and even answer her, get back to my conversing etc. I realized once again that I am a multi-tasker for sure!

5. Again. Unease. As if my hands are a cup and if there is nothing to put in them (if I do not talk while moving them), the cup looses its meaning too.

6. I wanted to stay in this state forever. It was so comfortable. Funnily this was so short of a silence compared to the uneasy silence of mine at the 1st stage. As if I started to appreciate the importance of immobility at the end of this 12 minutes.

In general, more than "time awareness", this practice helped me to reflect on the relation between my thinking mind and my moving body. It was nice to see how my being as a whole has various layers and how these layers function in relation to each other. I think this exercise, can be used for concentration and jumping board to dive in to a more intense work for awareness and stage presence. Face to face and back to back versions could also be interesting... 

I would be interested to see a performance coming out of this exercise as well... (Why not Esra? We seem to be ready to work together with Aydin on that :-)